Sometimes things press in hard, and you know that there is much that needs to be done. Lately there are times where I feel like that a lot, yet at the same time it is like someone has pressed the pause button on things. For as much as I need to get accomplished, I simply can’t do anything more right now.
I know that there is much needing attention, and quickly, and I see it clearly. At the same time while I can see it, I also see that there is no way to do this at this point in time. It is a strange feeling, to know that things are pressing in, and not be able to do anything about it right now. It is similar to be watching a movie, knowing what scene comes next, and yet someone has pressed paused and walked away. There is a waiting in anticipation, at the same time a great sense of frustration because you can’t move forward.
As frustrating and strange as it feels I know that I must press into God, and let Him show me what needs the most attention. Currently that is relationships. I find that I am spending more time with my family as a whole. Also spending more time with my grandmother, who in recent years I have not cared to spend that much time with.
I tend to struggle with the thoughts that I must do more to resume life as normal. Instead I can only be who I am and just do what is needed. Which means a lot more of helping out, sitting there and relaxing, enjoying my grandmothers presence, instead of being busy going about life as normal.
But this serves to remind me that I need not go about resuming life as normal, because my “normal” life isn’t what God placed me here for. I am called to do what God wants of me, instead of doing whatever I please.