I’ve mentioned some of my health problems that I have had recently while I explained my lack of posting. Yet I find myself wanting to explain a bit more.
Since the beginning of October I started paying attention more to the fact that my body simply was not functioning the same. For some months now I noticed that I have been simply exhausted, with little energy for anything. I mostly blamed this on starting my new job, which required 10 hour days that was supposed to be 4 days a week, but ended up having a 5th day at 8 hours. As if that wasn’t enough to adapt to, I have the privilege of being at work at 5 in the morning. So it was a shock to my system as I am used to staying up late. I naturally thought having been unemployed for so long that I am just out of shape and practice and simply needed time to adjust.
My hormones have been out of balance for about a year now, but all of the professionals wanted to say that was due to thyroid problems and they did nothing.
So at the beginning of October I began to notice some issues. Bowel movements were becoming more problematic with cramps and major pain. Then over a short period it got to where I could not eat or drink that I didn’t instantly bloat, have gas, heartburn, indigestion and just feel miserable. So I scheduled an appointment knowing that my doctor has wanted to send me to an endocrinologist. However now my thyroid looks fine and other than running labs, nothing happened at that appointment.
A few weeks later starting on the 19th, I started experiencing vertigo. However, I was told by the ENT that urgent care referred me to, that mine is not a typical case. This is because most people’s is triggered by movement of some kind, but it eases if you do not perform the trigger movement. However mine started as I was watching a Beth Moore study session and it simply has not stopped. I have been given medicine to help, but it works only when it wants to. My vertigo is a constant spinning of everything around me. On my bad days the floor seems to be pitching and rolling and whatever I touch feels like it is moving. On the not so bad days, everything spins nonstop, but what I touch seems stable.
So my days now look like this:
Wake up early, room spinning, call off work and go back to sleep. Wake back up around 7:30-8 and stumble through the house fix a drink, take medicine, go lay back down for a while. Let the room spinning slow down, get up, get dressed in stages, sitting down as needed. Brush teeth and hair, then make the bed. Get something to eat. Grab my throw and lay back on top of the bed. Possibly dozing off after reading my devotions. Reading is practically impossible as everything spins, making it hard to focus. Wake up take more medicine. Try to do something, possibly succeeding for about 15 minutes before having to give up and lay down. Not tired, but I can’t read, so I pray and try to listen to CD’s. The noise bothers my head, so I turn it off. Check Facebook from my cell phone. Now I have a headache from trying to focus. I turn it all off and doze off again because anything else is too much effort. I repeat the whole process often throughout the day until bedtime. I’m only allowed 3 pills for the vertigo throughout the day.
This my friends is my life as they try to figure out what is causing this. I have been to the doctors and a few different specialists and had some various tests run. Hopefully we are closer to receiving answers. This is why I have not written lately. However this also makes me more aware that even when someone appears fine, as I seem fine most days, that we need to be gentle and kind because we never know what kind of battle someone could really be facing. I know that there are many invisible illnesses and I imagine that you may all know of someone who suffers and the world doesn’t understand it. Perhaps we can all use the reminder to show our support to someone today.